As I reflect on all of the things I have been experiencing and learning as I grow in Christ, I can't believe how much I just didnt know and how not knowing has set me up for some major sin issues in my life.
Over the past 10 years I have been going to church. Not always consistently, but I was saved and baptised, and I thought I knew God. I thought I understood. I thought that was good enough.
All I can say about that is, I was not reading God's Word every day. I was not praying or spending enough time with Him.
If I wasn't doing that, how then could I ever have possibly been able to really know him and have him working in my life? If you know me, you know that I have been through it. If you still know me, you know that I am working hard to change my life and I am walking with Christ. The only way possible to turn it around is to completely put my faith in Him and know him more, every day.
I have some really difficult decisions to make. I need to take care of some things that I wasn't sure I had the strength to do before. I have to make a list of things that need to be crossed off that I dread having to do.
The one thing that I did do, the most important thing I needed to do, is already done...I completely and recklessly gave my life to Jesus. I am completely convinced that He, and only He is going to fill all of the broken crevices of my heart.
I get it now. I really really get it.
